The Unfortunate Lucky Charm
Sounds ironic indeed.
Let me break it down slowly, why a lucky charm would be unfortunate at the same time.
Well, this locket doesn't even belong to me in the first place.
But before that, let me show what's inside of it!
It's a four leaf clover. Yeah, it's not real, it's paper. It's a cut out of a drawn leaf on paper, well-protected by transperant cello tape.
The one to whom this locket belongs to actually, once found a real four leaf clover. She kept it in this locket of hers, which welcomed a lot of good luck to her. All the positivity surrounded her, she was all happy. But then one day she lost the leaf, and along it went all her good luck too, apparently. At least, that's what she'd told me.
Now, why's her locket, with me?
She gifted me, obviously. She made that whole four leaf clover to give me, maybe with hopes that it'd bring me good luck...?
Why would she gift me her locket?
I don't totally have an idea, but, I'm the happiest here, receiving one of her meaningful belongings as a gift.
Because she meant, and means, a lot to me.
It's been a very few days since I've known her, but it was not too late that I realised, I would only have her locket with me, and never her.
I never forget to wear it out everyday. Because, ever since she secured the locket around my neck herself, I've been receiving only good luck, happiness, strength, confidence, positive energy, and growth, in huge amounts. But come to think of it, actually ever since I've met her, everything has been the best for me, which is even before I was aware of the locket.
Maybe the good luck really did work out for me..
Maybe, the four clover leaf indeed is lucky..
Or maybe, the locket is lucky..
But....
Maybe, she was the one, the lucky charm for me..
Maybe, because it's hers, it's lucky for me..
Maybe, maybe, she's lucky for me.
And maybe, the locket and the four leaf clover was lucky for her...
And maybe, she'd mistakenly given out her luck to me...
Maybe...I mistakenly took away her luck as my gift.
My luck remains, because there's her presence.
And, what about her?
Maybe I wasn't lucky enough for her..
Maybe my gifts, my clutch, my bracelet, couldn't give her any luck.. any happiness..
Hence she had to put everything behind and move ahead. The universe made her do it.
While I still waited for my lucky charm...all alone.
So yes, the locket, is somehow lucky for me. Maybe it's just the four leaf clover or maybe it's her presence rather.
But unfortunate because, maybe it took away her luck of that time, which consisted of me and of us.
When she was finally happy, at peace, the universe just couldn't be on her favour regarding these, and it just took away what made her happy at that moment, which is us.
I wish to return it to her as soon as possible, hoping she might have better things coming up to her that provide her happiness and peace. Even if it might take away my good luck that came with her and with it, I don't mind returning it.
But I won't..
Because it's the only part of hers that I can proudly keep with me.
Because I love her presence, not for the good luck but the good memories, the good expectations, the good dreams, of ours, the magic that we had of us, the only happening that made me sing with emotions rather than just with the melody, it's preserved only with the locket now.
I gained all the good luck and happiness, but at what cost??
It's unfortunate, that shortly after this, we stopped existing. Now only she exists, and I exist.
We, don't exist.
We don't exist.
*sighs*
It's one of the most precious accessories in my whole cupboard. And, it's the priceless accesory, out of all that I own.
Oh and- that camera!
Haha, not really a camera.
It's a keychain.
She is into film-making, and genuinely the best cinematographer I have seen yet or met yet. So when I came across this keychain, I instantly bought it, thinking of her, with hopes that I might gift it to her, but, guess the universe had plans to let me keep it with me.
~Saparja.
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